Dealing With That Pesky Black Cloud
My favorite verse: Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight.
This verse is something that I must remind myself of every single day. Trust in Him. But you know what? While He is the person that ultimately decides everything about my life, I need to learn to trust in myself as well. I have to trust in my own abilities. Why is this so hard?
There have been so many times where I get so excited for something and I get all of these crazy ideas in my head, and then real life doesn't live up to those expectations. I let myself down again. It is this very unfortunate cycle that I can't seem to get out of. But one of these times, I am going to be successful and I won't let myself down. What a day that is going to be for me, it's going to be such a breakthrough! Until then, I have to keep trying new things and find something that is going to make me successful.
There is a lot going on in my life now, and if you know me personally, you know I have been going through a hard season. So many things are changing in my life, and the biggest one is where my heart is. My passion has changed a lot over the six months, and I am currently searching for what I am truly passionate about. I have come up with this idea to create a t-shirt company, where people can buy a simple, yet inspirational shirt that they love to wear. But there is more to it than just wanting to create an online store, I want to create a business that is going to change my life.
My ultimate goal is to become a stay-at-home mom one day. Am I crazy? Without a doubt, but ever since I can remember, I have wanted to become a mother. While that day is still quite a few years away, I want to start preparing for it now. With the world and economy the way it is, it's very difficult to survive on one income, and therefore for me to be able to be a stay-at-home mom, I need to find a job that I can work from home while still providing me with an income. It is important for me to prove to myself that I can do this. Working from home is possible. I have seen so many women do this. I have the support system behind me. Now I just need to not give up on myself so that I can make my dream a reality.
Why does anyone pursue a crazy dream? Because they know it will be worth it. All of my hard work will be worth it. All the time I am spending trying to figure out where to create logos and find comfortable t-shirts and where to print those t-shirts, etc. will all be worth it. For now, I have to keep forging on and never give up on where the Lord is leading me.
Hi there! I'm Kelli and this blog is about my life with anxiety, and how I am learning to cope. Looking to God is the only way that I stay sane (well with some help from my family, pets, and boyfriend). My goal is to attempt to be a silver lining for all, myself included.