Dealing With That Pesky Black Cloud
Day 8 of my bible study of The Good Stuff by Havilah Cunnington; and Havilah did it again. Hitting me right in my feels. How does she do it every day?
Maybe that's because God is working within me, and I am looking towards Him to continue that work. But sometimes, we aren't always "good receivers" of His message. Sometimes, we sit there in disbelief that God could put us through such crap, and allow so much anger within us.
Right now, God is asking me to do something that I truly just do not understand.
Personally, I am having a super rough time. This has truly been one of the most trying times of my life. Before this year, I knew I didn't have it all together, but I thought I was doing pretty well for a 23 year old still in school. But man, God obviously thought I had some more growing to do. I heard a quote yesterday that really hit home for me. "You're going into a season where you're about to experience breakthrough after breakthrough, because what you went through didn't break you." I'm not sure who that author is, but I bet they were going through some sh*t too. Havilah says, "maybe God is asking you to do something and you're ticked off." And she isn't wrong! I am ticked. I am so tired of having a bad day for the majority of my days.
I should be having good days every day. I have a good life. I'm healthy, I am in a wonderful relationship, and my relationship with God is healthy and growing. But yet, I'm unhappy. Sometimes, it is so hard to get out of bed.
I could get into the whole, "why me?" scenario, but that does nobody any good. Life happens to everyone. Depression and anxiety happens to a lot of people, and we have to learn to keep moving forward.
Hi there! I'm Kelli and this blog is about my life with anxiety, and how I am learning to cope. Looking to God is the only way that I stay sane (well with some help from my family, pets, and boyfriend). My goal is to attempt to be a silver lining for all, myself included.